Thursday, March 3, 2011
I received the paperwork just days after having Bam Bam. I feel like it's divine intervention. I do feel that it's God's way of saying that I can take this time to be a mommy and to say goodbye to my career for a while. Not forever, but for a while.
For so long being a teacher was my identity. I knew who I was and I knew how to do my job. Over the last 3 years I've been working on this new identity of being a stay-at-home mom. It's a roller coaster ride. It's unpredictable, scary, fun, intimidating, exhilarating, exhausting, and the best job I have ever had. Some days I don't think I'm very good at it, and other days I feel like I've completely hit it out of the park. There's no other place I'd rather be right now.
I feel like I missed so much the first 2 years of Boogie's life while I worked. I'm happy that I took some time off to spend time with him that last 3 years and then to be around for Buggy and for Bam-Bam. As a friend pointed, it's not forever. I could always go back if I wanted. But right now I have the opportunity to be totally selfish of my time and to do what I want. So I choose to stay home with the kids. But I also realize that it's no longer my time and I don't get to do whatever I want. It's my kids' time and what I want to do is to serve them in this time. So rewarding! If I can raise them to be empathetic, helpful, loving, and kind people, then I've done a good job.
In the meantime I've decided to seriously focus on writing. I've received a lot of positive feedback from some of my posts. I'm still in a "new" Mommy stupor and pretty exhausted, but as I continue to heal and get back into the swing of things, I'm going to start submitting some of my writing. Wish me luck!
Now when people ask what I do, instead of saying "I'm a teacher" I say, "I'm a Stay-at-home Mom." It has a nice ring to it.