I remember coming home and talking with my husband about how I was praying for grace to give in to God's calling. If I was meant to have this baby, He would make it happen. If not, I prayed for the grace to let this baby go. It was a difficult choice. I had wanted this baby so much before conception. Having Bug made me realize that I could handle more children and I desperately wanted another one to round out our lives.
So as each day passed in my pregnancy, my husband and I rejoiced in another day closer to full-term. It came to be that we were blessed with Mr. Bananas. I was also blessed with the love and support of family and friends who stuck by me 100% of the way. A year after I thought I was going to lose my precious baby I was taking him with me to celebrate the birthdays of our beloved extended family. Praise God!